I am not a fan of expressing my thoughts and feelings, especially because most people will not care. I don’t find it comforting that others would tell me, “you will be okay soon,” and “everything is going to fine,” and stuff like that because I know they are not aware of what is happening with me. I don’t believe in surrounding myself with the presence of people because it feels like they are just hanging around to watch me fall.
Do I sound so negative? Of course, I am. Because part of human nature is cruel, they think it is necessary to always look down on others during their most devastating time. Perhaps they find it reassuring. Maybe they like it because it makes them think that their lives are much better than those who are seriously dragging their ass off mental and emotional health problems. But I don’t know for sure. I can’t just judge people only because they know nothing about my mental illness.
With that kind of negative mentality I possess, I know things can get a little tough for my overall well-being. But it is not like I did not intend to reach out and give people a break. Of course, I did ask for help from friends and family that I dearly love. Unfortunately, with their unconcern reactions and not many helpful opinions, my depression only got worse. That is where I tried outsourcing some help from people I don’t know, and I found most of them online through my blog.
Why I Write About My Mental Health
There is nothing special, and there is no particular reason why I write about mental health stuff. I just happened to love blogging because it takes my mind off of some things. Honestly, I never thought about using it to talk much about my mental health struggles because I do not see the point of expressing those things. I once thought that if I write about depression, people will only get drawn to the negativity and blame my writing for their inconclusive condition. However, I was wrong.
When I started writing about how I feel, it did not entirely take off on quite the first few attempts. A lot of people are ignoring it, maybe because they find it boring and uninformative. I don’t know. Perhaps I just didn’t let go of my emotions back then that I still had these restrictions as to what I should and shouldn’t include in my blog. But after a while of consistently opening up about my emotional and mental health issues, I find that people became more engaged with my writing.
When I was involved in some of the details of my depression and shared even the darkest side of my struggle, I noticed that people were getting hooked on my blogs. That is where I received many comments and suggestions as to how to cope with depressive symptoms. Some experts even took a moment and posted some resources that they think would be helpful for my situation, and that was a huge bonus. Some highlighted the important assets that blogging could provide, such as the following:
- Noticing my negative thoughts and accepting them as is
- Replacing negative emotions with more positive ones
- Understanding what cognitive distortions are to address them properly
- Learning the key to starting a positive point of view in everything about life
I was in awe and entirely grateful with the whole blogging thing that I forgot about being depressed. That is so amazing. I found myself constantly chatting with some of the few people who once commented on my blog but now share the same experience as mine. I gained friends and a positive online environment through my writing, and that makes me so happy. Blogging became my fortress and best source of community support. It introduces me to a different world where I can be myself without being afraid of rejection and humiliation.
Of course, there are instances that some comments are not helpful at all. Some are mean and even triggering for severe depressive symptoms. But fortunately, those comments do not create an impact compared to the people who continue to provide positive feedback. I found that blogging made me realize that there are so many things I should be thankful for. It helped me focus on accomplishing better and stable emotional and mental health. Blogging made me appreciate my life even more.
So to answer the question of whether you should write about your whole experience with depression, the answer is an absolute yes! Blogging about mental health struggles is an unselfish act because it encourages people to also open more about their underlying psychological issues. After all, you might never know when you could hit the right audience and influence their lives positively through your own mental health journey.